Haha. Today such a good day. Being able go to work, yes, i found there more pleasurable than my home and outside work. Got pc, updating facebook, doing something we love which is designing, having pressure of work, eat kfc, order laptop, yeah, and got sunshine shine.

haha. 1 thing i really like, i really able to speak english again. Seriously, is been a while, need to get confident back.

did i tell you all that got 2 new person on my office and 2 trainey.

Last weekend, my family came to kk. I'm was so happy. Yeah! So happy cos got some1 chean my house, dinner and watch movie.

so last weekend i watched prince of persia and sherk 3d. Prince of persia is awesome movie, it remind me of assassin creed, since that game only i play about mid east.

sherk 3d? The reason i wanted to watch this is to watch 3d. How was 3d? Is was fun. Really real 3d. I sure wanted to watch avatar 3d

Waking up wit a sad dream. Dream that about some1 that i should forgetten. Why still inside me. Even the face, the smell, the touch is long forgetten, but the present of her still can be fell inside the dream. Is a sad dream because i know i speak less, the time i speak less is the time is about the end. Everything is negative.

well. I prefer sad feeling rather emotionless, at least i can feel love is pain. So today, a holiday, will be a sober day for me. Plan is watch tv. And cook nice food. Just to heal my soul.

Work. A part of it being interesting, everyday i try solve some puzzle or calculate something, well, most of time fb, to just loose the pressure. Haha. But today, i really feel so fear, i could be using something that i never try before, is good to try something new. My fear is cause by i feeling not confident, i even try to express to trainey, just telling that this really hard, something to let go from my heart.

again. Being able making decision that need to consider every1 is hard. Very very hard. My mind is every1 should not be left alone. Hope tomoro a good day. Oh ya. I really love teaching, so happy able to give

Guess what. Yesterday night, after i post my blog, i really can't wait till wednesday. I went out and watch the movie, and alone, i can't recommend it, being alone at late night is a bit dangerous, but i did all the time and don't realise it, perhaps this time i'm fully awake.

ok. Robin hood? Well. It really impressive. The director able to capture the era how the robin hood became a thief. How a king ego can change the history. 1 thing i confuse, how they come from france to england, isn't that far away. Ok. This really a guys movie. I give 4 out of 5

Hey. Right now. My desire, my will, that i want watch robin hood. Recently, i'm giving up wan to watch it, suria gsc just open and penampang megalong cineplex also open, but none showing robin hood.

i watch history channel and they talk about robin hood. My heart tell, you gotta watch this. Switch channel and watch this movie on this wednesday.

Lily allen - who'd have know and a friend frenzy - happier

somehow i like this song.

Yesterday and this sunday morning, i wake up. Feel really empty inside me. There is no tear. No emotion. Just stagnant. I don't know what get into me. But i know, i wan talk to somebody. I just need some smile today. Yet i can't get one. I guess i need go out, get some air, get out alone wasn't my plan for weekend, usually i stay alone in my house. Watching tv to kill the time.

i guess i better go out my hair and wash it. Hehe.

I really forget to write this blog. The thing is, inside me is really down, really sad, if i express it, everyday i will be say the same thing.

i do accept thing happened, but i just cant believe it. I always looking for change, but is all a cover up, even i achieve it, why my heart still feel the same.

why i feel that i'm the 1 that u talking about...

Hello my long forgoten blog. I didn't forget you as i always check some1 blog that i unable mention her name. I really wanted to update it. Lots of topic that inside my mind tat i wanted to share like, i have bad feeling when i'm at lbn, lion dance, CNY, my new house.

Just wish time passes quickly, and i don't care anymore.

Labuan Labuan Labuan Labuan. Will be here for 1 week

Today i went for site visit At kg mongok, tambunan for bridge lunching. This my first time watching bridge lunching. My first impression of the site is, it is huge in uncivilize places. Really, i was suprise out of no where, there was it, a big bridge, may be i have no idea about what is going on the place, could be there are no bridge crossing for this place.

so, the lunching, ok. I didn't read the method statement, but here my assumption. First, temporary slider will be set up beside the bridge. Then the plate glider will slide across the river. 6 crane working together to hold the glider and it is very slender, since there no bracing on minor axis. after sliding, then slowly lift up to put on the embrakement. Hehe. That all i can say. Hate my english.

Fear. I got lots of it! Fear of eating veggie. Fear of talking to people, fear of driving, fear of embrassment, fear of rejection, fear of belanja people. Now, i fear ghost movie, but the most i fear on movie is love or romantic movie.

just about now i watch triller movie, yes, it is scary. But i really can watch it. I don't hold much emotion wit it. Then, i watch love movie, not exactly love movie, but there involve love. That, i really can't stand it. I really hate those movie! But i love to watch it!

dude, i really feel hopeless now. In fact, i really hopeless, a hopeless guy! Future? No. There no bright future, no matter positive inside us, if we already born bad luck, we will always being unfortunate! Unless we really lupa daratan. After lucky come in, then can remember back.

but i wont such person. No matter how unlucky are i.

Why do people need to be socialize? I found this question is difficult to me. Perhaps we do have sims like o-meter that indicate we need to fill our needs.

this i found it interesting. I'm right now seek some1 to talk. I find it difficult now to just sit tight and read book. But somehow in my mind, i really wan to be left alone, just sit there and have a slow time.

my non stop looking to facebook and fanatic of blogging really mean 1 thing. I seek attention. Yeah. I admit it. But no attention i will get.

there other thing, i'm not the baby. I'm is honey or darling. And there always dear, sweetheart, love, baby or bro i used to call but never honey or darling.