31 july

For ages there's been talk of rather extensive alterations in elements of your way of living or working. However, nothing has come of them.

Now,i guess within days, things will fall into place, and without the dramas you so feared. It's as if all those discussions of the past weeks came together in one magical arrangement. Hehe.. I can feel it.. Hopefully this positive feeling can push me forward..

wow...tonight i chat wit some1... firstly i talk about my face... i really can try to skin specialist.. well i just want to change my look.. i always feel that this one of the reason i being like this..well... i can became handsome... ish...

then we talk about perfect man.. i was so suprise wit her answer.. well i cant recall it.. but mostly about god.. hehe.. then i kinda tell my problem..not really tell my exact problem... she know me and i guess she know all my situation.. so i no need to say lar.. haha. we had a nice talk... i quiet happy.. it really make me feel that i'm not alone.. yeah..

i will be strong.. and always keep faith wit Him.. Believe in Him...hhehehe...

i let it go not by my own strenght but by His strenght. philipian 4:13

may be the morning post are right.. hehe...

30 july

I always assume that the difficulties i'm facing are i'm alone deal wit it. On contrary, other are ready and eager to take part in discussing and share the responsibilty for coming up wit a solution that everybody can like with..

i need to talk about there now.. The more forthright i'm, the better..

hehe.. I need to discuss about renting a house.. My sad and loneliness.. My life.. And a friend.. Anyone? Hehe..

yeah... today i also got a house...just a bit too late.. never though that so much people look at that 1 item... yeah... the offer is good.. and is a really a house.. can pet a dog... unfurtunately the house already been book by other people... at 4 oclock... too bad... anyway.. is not wat i'm hoping for... because the house is two storey.. top floor is the owner and the bottom is renting...3 rooms!!! hehehe..well... the offer come and go... sadly... herm... but my day is ok... need a new friend...bintang... still never meet... so... keep on looking looking looking..

if you see me with nobody new cause i'm that little person still in love with you, you know sudah ku mencoba mencari penggantimu tapi tak ada yg berminat

-Dan-

29 july

Good morning every1. Today is wednesday.. Hoping can watch movie.. I never watch movie at this day.. Hoping today will change that..

i always take a long time to make a decision.. This because i think a lot.. With things that always changing and my mood always down.. I need to bide my time until circumstances are right..

nevertheless.. I'm at office.. And interaction wit people will always make feel alright..

28 july

Hello! Herm.. Sadly yesterday there don't have any offer.. Nothing that interested me.. The only thing is i still feeling sad.. Is not ordinary sad.. Is a hopeless sad..

today i have no positive feeling.. Since last friday.. My life feel like there no hope.. I really need support..

27 july

Hehe.. Well.. Today i feel quite ok because i'm at work.. It give time for me to other that me..

hopefully, an offer will come from out of the blue.. Is will be as good as they seem.. I need to do some exploration, it could be even better..

another positive view today.. Hopefully that will stay..

first thing to do

Somehow.. I feel really hopeless.. Knowing what happen next.. Know that the world always against you..

I dream of having a good life.. Yeah.. Things not always going what we think of.. Day by day.. I feel i float too far.. There is no more hope.. Dream always be a dream.. I can only tell in this blog.. I can tell more detail.. But it is use to be the same thing.. You all what it is..

i hate to admit i didn't move on.. Only try to avoid.. I can't do it.. Because i still unable to let go.. I still feel the love.. There lots of thing is this world yet i choose the same thing that will always broken my heart..

come on syl.. I know myself will never stop thinking about till new hope and dream arrives.. I looking everywhere.. Just sometimes.. Is not that simple.. Is not like going to mall and buy it.. I here all alone.. Not totally alone.. I wish i can be on her sides.. Come on.. I really hate myself.. Is there anyway to punish myself?

ish.. Come on syl.. First.. Find real friend.. Hang out.. Adui.. Again.. Is not like go to shop and buy something.. Go to church and join the group there.. Yeah.. Wise choice.. But i really don't like it.. Not that i got tanduk or something like that.. It just i hate my life, mean i don't love myself, mean that i don't appreciate what god have given to me.. Ok.. Back to find real friend.. Just have to wait and try hard to stand out of crowd.. I so desperate.. I have too.. If not, i will never move on, my mind will only think about her.. So long..

cancel plan

Today i suppose to go back labuan.. But suddenly feel like don't want.. Because yesterday i got my heart broken.. Well.. Going back to labuan will only bring back sad memories.. Althought my family at labuan and i'm happy to meet them.. But is unbearable to face the what had happen.. So.. I decide i don't go back today.. I still feel depress from yesterday broken heart.. But what to do.. Had to move on..

yesterday also.. While feeling hopeless.. I just remember post about my opportunity. When i think of it.. I got 1 thing i didn't try, and it just give from my friend yesterday.. So.. I give it a try.. Is a friend of my colleague.. Well.. I sms but it was her sister.. Haha.. Nothing much to tell.. But it at least add some spice of my hopeless feeling..

that it for now.. Another boring weekend to pass.. Miss her.. Bye

24 july

Herm.. Today.. I feel not in mood.. Well.. Wake up.. Feel stress of something.. Just hope is not what i think of.. Go to office.. Transfer file to a infected laptop.. My harddisk keep failed copy.. Herm.. Lucky i'm a patient guy.. So.. I try do things slowly.. Huh..

today been said that stunning opportunities is coming my way.. But i need to explore my option and avoid making any commitment that i can't disentangle myself from..

sweet friday every1. Happy pay day!

23 july

Again.. My morning post.. I hope today something new and exciting idea will came out.. Hehe.. This thing could be inside me all day long.. Well.. Think that the currently working will give me a reason for what will happen..

hehe.. I'm quite happy able to email to my blog.. Hehe.. Good morning!

phone onlined!

Testing.. I call the Celcom service.. Is a simple fix.. On off your phone.. Then try again.. Yeah.. If this post make it to my blog.. That mean i'm connected.. Hehe.. So.. Testing.!

feeling sad...all the time

so.... every day i fel bored... most of it happen at night.. i dont know want happen... i just wish can slowly change things.. i really had a wish.. but all that wish is just want to make me happy.. but wat i reallly want... is.... something unchangeable... impossible to achive... yeah..

here i currently wish of.. a house... a big house... and a car... honda civic.. hehe... all of this i can achive... dont this not wat i really wanted in my heart.. well.. better wish something that can get rather something impossible...

last saturday i went to b1 wit friend, go watch movie.. well i realise that i a boring guy.. go out have nothing to do... i'm a boring guy... lucky the person i going out is my long lost adik angkat.. so.. she dont mind... haha... still... i a lame guy... y not more excitement from me... :(

and today... i found out some1 that emotional as me, single last time, always complain about life... well.. i just found out she already move on and found some1... herm... so so fast... huhuhu... try lar i'm her... life would be easy...

ok lar.. that all i want to say..got lots again... just i forget...bye

blogging!!!

yeah..just about i start want to blog endlessly my phone started make problem....

yerp...stilll talk about my phone...

so.. today today today..


i got work to do... still feel like doing office work and not much civil engineering owrk... i get my cubical..my desk... all are complete... i need to order cabinet again.. i can feel my file will increase quickly as i help other engineer.. all the paper work i done come back to me... for my personal keeping... tonnes of drawing on my table already... herm... i really need to arrange my table... hehe... but my table is empty.. some1 buy for me things like pen holder, flower, and other cute2 things... hahaha

i need to have acess to internet.. i miss my blog so much... lots to tell... although my life is boring... really boring.. so so sad.... feel my life is meaningless... well... time passes... i think it will be the same...