Murut culture center. It is located at tenom. I went the last monday for a meeting at site. Hehe. Wow. I was suprise by the size of it. It fully make by belian wood. The building standing like demand it is a castle. The belian column tell the word that it will last forever.

sadly. The building seem abandon. I think it only use once a year for an occasion. Is a waste. But i think it will not more after we done upgrading it. This is part of the job the rewarding. Design building or infra for the people and improve. Still it all come to the goverment to decide to build it or not. Hehe.

this is my first visit to tenom. I think i ever went there when i was small. Is a small town. Very small. Still an important place. It will know of its tenom kopi. Well. We didn't spend time at there that much. Only pass by.

the road we use is keningau - kimanis. Is a breathtaking journey. I love the nature surround it. The crooker mountain range is around me. I really wish i can go down to explore the jungle. But then, if i go down, what can i do anyway. The air are fresh and cool. I really wan to spend a night there just looking the surround. However the road is scary, on way up, i saw lots of broken glass, and on way down, the cloud or fog, cover the road, we can only see 5 meter in front. lucky the driver, is the engineer designing the road and build the road. So i'm sure he know the road well.

that all

Row row boat. The engine sound continuously fill my ear. Yesterday is not annoying but today, it start to be annoying. Perhaps the vibration that annoy me. Air con are still cold and i hold on tight to my sweater. Tv just now show rambo, an interesting story that show life after endless killing people, he still a beast, at army people praise him as hero, at outside, people think he is a monster. But i didn't watch begining of the movie because i'm addictive to my book.

my mind right now is about a movie. A movie that i watched yesterday title tell no one, is a french movie. I impressive with the movie yet i understand litte about. I will make proper review about it later on. Right now i'm thinking about my point of view of watching movie.

i watch movie because i like to dream, at same time i love to observe the actor. I also fan of latest technology. Any vision art or fancy equipment will impress me. I also love music, from sweeney tod of the barber that behead people to teen loved high school musical, venessa huggen, to disney sing of enchanted or princess frog. All of this i look in the movie.

i wish i had movie fan just like me. And my writing aren't improve because i can't spell. Writing blog on phone had its weakness.

bookfair

Hehe. This month at suria. There were a bookfair. Usually i don't go to those places, but recently i went to there, not once, but a couple times. Still i didn't brought the cheap book, i only buy 30 discount book. Well. 30 is a very good offer. Hehe. Brought 5 books. Feel happy about it. In other word, 5 companion for me. But i will bring only 1 book at a times.

most the book i brought are is my first time read from different author, usually i read cecelia ahern. Sophie kinsella also i ever read but not her usually shopaholic. Hope there are all good.

legion

Legion is just another movie. Angel fall down from the sky try to save a pregnant woman. The baby said will save the humanity. Well. Thats it.

there aren't make action that we hope for, there aren't angel flying around shot each other like dog fight. None. Only angel wit wing fighting wit angel wit no wing. Haha. Is unimpressive. Ok. Now. Guns. remember zombie movie. Is similar. Good guy shot from top of building kill all the bad that want to come in the building.

ok. Now. Story. They lots of thing that it try to teach us. The hopeless guy try to carry the burden around him. The pregnan woman want to give away the baby. The gengstar try to repent. A broken family that have problematic child. All of this are their weakness. Well. Is not a drama movie. So. They fail.

ok. Picture wise. Is ordinary. Sound. Ordinary. And also. There lot question in this movie. How the girl pregnan? Why this angel help them? Is the world end?

the gift - Cecelia ahern

A young boy throw a turkey throught a window. He was caught by a policemen. Then the policemen tell this boy a story. All of this happen at christmas day.

the story is about a bisnessmen, lou. He is a very busy men, all the time, phone on his ear. Settle things around him. He can done two things at once. It shown how busy he was.

then come the homeless guy, gabe, he able to create awkward to lou, a very confident men. But most importantly gabe able show important of life, family and love. Lou really get his wish, to be 2 places at once, making him able to achieve his goal.

but at the end, lou meet an accident. Is a sad story but it teach us important of time. No matter how good we can manage our time, being 2 place at a time, still, we can negle people around us.

this novel had gone long way from her previous novel. The language she use are more deep. Still she able capture people heart.

Missing is like word that can explain lost, grief, gone, thought. I miss lots of thing, things that i feel will never come back. I heard people acting when missing some1, they were so sad, yet a smile on their face cos there were on the phone. Their word are very sweet, full of care.

someday. I will feel it. Hehe.

time

A lesson finds the common denominator and links us all together, like a chain. At the end of that chain dangle a clock, and on the face of the clock the passing of time is register. We hear it, the hushed tick-tock sound that breaks any silence, and we see it, but often we don't feel it. Each second makes its mark on every single person's life; comes and then goes, quietly disappearing without fanfare, evaporating into air like steam from a piping got christmas pudding. Enough time leave us warm; when our time is gone, it too leaves us cold. Time is more precious than gold, more precious that diamonds, more precious than oil or any valuable treasures. It it time that we do not have enough of; it is time that causes the was within our hearts, and so we must spend it wisely. Time cannot be packaged and ribboned and left under trees for christmas morning.

time can't be given. But it can be shared

desire

Desire play important role in my life. Since i was small i got lots of desire, i want lots of things. Back to the old days, i can't have wat i wan. Sometimes of the time i need to cry to get it. I remember last time i want tamagochi, i save my money to buy it. At the end, i really get wat i wan, but after a while i'm playing it, i became careless and the device drown into water. Well. I lost it.

even now, i got some of the desire since childhood, like own a remote control car, have my bicycle modified. Own a video game. And lots more. I know is hard for me to get it. But i know someday i will have it.

now, i have a wish list. I know it make me feel like i'm materialistic. But is only way i feel fulfill and satisfy. I really wan do those, but i need to be logical, i need to money for living. Well. Guess some of the thing had been fulfill.

i brought a new nike shoe for joking. Tomoro i start going to bukit padang. Hopefully this will stay long. And i also get a new pair of contact lens. Hehe. Well. Next on my list is treatment for my skin. Hehe. Need to wait for next month. I scare it will cost a lot. I know it will.

my life is not getting better. Just improve. I still the same.

confession of pain

Why they make it so simple? Why a perfect couple live so happily? Their action show full of affection. Their eye on each is unbreakable. Girl seem silly, but will obey her boy. Boy so tough, but will romance his girl. He go places he never been before to just see her, and don't admit it. So funny.

well. Eye saw everything. Heart feel a hitch. Unbearable me for being 3th person eye. Wish to be the 1st person stand and feel the joy.

2010 resolution

1. Exercise at least once a month
2. Read 6 books
3. Have my house became comfortable with basic needs.
4. Total saving at year end is 5% of every month.
5. Learn myself 3 new skills or applied knowladge.
6. Have car became comfortable and new.
7. Go to church often.

hello 2010

Happy new year for me. Hope things will turn out great. You know what, i think i spend my new year countdown while bath, don't realise the time, only heard firework outside the house. Hope that will wash away my bad luck. Hello 2010!

why i'm so excited.

year 2009

Is a bad year for me. None of my dream come true. On bright side, i graduate at this year, get a job, get a new life. What my dream? Well, be a rich person, be a naturalist, most important have a lover for my broken heart. Well.
None of it ever happen.

should i welcome 2010? Well, i need to set up new resolution. Could be more like my wish list. Hehe. Hope next year will be a good 1. I'm not looking forward it. So the answer is no. I'm not looking forward it and welcome it.

you know, 2010 is a beautiful year to start. The full moon in th sky wit firework. Well. Is those year ppl think this world is wonderfull. How is like to be at outside wit some1 special.

5th book

This the last book for this year. 5 books so far i read. All about fairy tales, love, friendship, and memories. All are not romantic story, but is full of love. Hehe. All of this book are good companion to me, reading them make me feel not lonely and let the time pass quickly. Hehe. Love to bring book around.

9 dec

While thinking plans through before tackling them is wise, i'm urged to discuss them wit certain well-informed individuals. Only once i have combined their knowledge wit my analysis of the situation at present will i be able to come up wit a concept that's as practical as it is visionary.

Hello dear blog,

is been a while i don't talk to you, i do think of you all the time, i do wan to tell everything, the problem is, is all about sadness. Hehe. The funny thing is, is your name, sadness and loneliness. The only obstacle is there lots of people i been friend recently, i just can't afford to lose them just because i'm sad.

i know the solution is just private you, but i can't do it, the reason i create you is to tell every1 that i'm a useless people, to get help, i know there is people are doing their best, got healer but she got silent. I really wish i can tell everything in here.

x'mas is soon, i have no mood for it, but inside me, giving is better that just keep for myself. even i don't enjoy this season, i planning to give, at least people smile wan make me happy. So, anything? who knows i will be the next santa.

this year end which mean is almost 1 year. I know some1 enjoy their life. Twilight, i wish i'm bella, i feel i'm really her, is true i'm sitting there for months, is true i had bad dream, is true i saw her illusion, is true i'm happy wit some1 else, is true i still want her, but is not true we way we break up, is not true she think of me, and is really not true the ending that everything been told is just a lie. I wish the story is exactly like that, everything is exactly true.