today i wake up wonder will i lose it all....review back many years tat i ever live.. start from form 5 after school... i got a few best friend that always together...gary, sunny boy, bennedict, lee wai hong, khairul anuar, rizwan.. and a few more.. that most best friend of them are gary and sunny boy.. but after school finish..we all going our own way...separate.. we still contact each other.. have a drink.. remember back the old days... hahaha..still i feel the loses of them....
now at matrix..i meet lots of friend...i discover that people all round the place have a kind heart.. people that unknown each other are quite friendly.. till they know the true of each people... my friend on that time if from sabah...edward, azuan, fizila, ayuz, zamir and their gang, and from my class - roddy, rina, zahit, cam, caloline, and lots more..sorry cant remember all...the sad thing is after matrix..i lose all contact wit all of them..is been like 4 years...i didnt ever meet them..is sad for me to think back wat i ever lose...for me... they are so important to me as they look after me.. take care of me.. even just for 1 year..but the friendship is meaningfull because is my first time i encounter people outside.. well...is already gone..may be 1 day try to contact them...i promise..
now now now...how should i value friendship...i already give up try to make activity for my housemate..still they seem dont care...well..i give up...not that i dont care...i do...i really wish it end in good way..perhaps i should let it be..just go with the flow.. this 4 years...all seem fresh to me...here come the boring story
at sem 1, i meet miji, ajak and solehudin. they all nice people.. i still remember that ajak bring his uncle to go to buy my pc, i still remember solehudin been such a nice person...them i meet my course batch..they all seem nice..sad for me because i only 1 person for matrix labuan. that time, my roommate are close to me. after that is sem 2...this bring me to ash...my new roommate..and also solehudin...he pretty much gone at that time...leave the house... ash seem pretty nice guy, very nice...hahaha he still now still my housemate...he is the best friend i got at semenanjung, well..i can say our friendship is just a friend..sadly...i know i can improve but my jealousy....my roommate at penang also are loq, bat, fazimi..they all nice to me...bring me enjoy clubness night out...hahaha..they know how to have fun... over the course..i also meet deedat.. a good friend..he seem wit me all the time..have almost similar mind wit me..pretty much he is almost like a mirror of me in term of thinking...but after long time i know him..we pretty such different.. totally different.. still mind are almost time same..just different in pattern.. at sem 3... i need noradila and zura...dyla is a pretty special girl... is my first time i lay my eye on girl at here.. our friendship start nicely and growning slowly.. miss those moment...through our friendship hilmi join in...hahaha...hilmi in my eye is some1 kind hearted.. willing do anything.. compare the his emotional, my emotional is much dangerous but i will keep it unexplode.. so.... who else... they lots more...is hard to write all my friend..but most of them are good people...oh ya...rasit i should mention... a strong heart person...:P
so.....y i write all of this...because i feel i gonna lose them... ash, deedat hilmi rasit dyla zura and all my batch...i will go back to labuan...then i will lose contact with then...of cos some i look forward to coming back like shikin marriage..that time i hope all are working a happy see each other.. perhaps is my emotion..my emotion that i being lose...i know in my heart when thinking of this...i know myself are crying...welll....i just have to go with the flow...but that flow lead to an unpleasent end....i hope is not like that...
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