31 july

For ages there's been talk of rather extensive alterations in elements of your way of living or working. However, nothing has come of them.

Now,i guess within days, things will fall into place, and without the dramas you so feared. It's as if all those discussions of the past weeks came together in one magical arrangement. Hehe.. I can feel it.. Hopefully this positive feeling can push me forward..

wow...tonight i chat wit some1... firstly i talk about my face... i really can try to skin specialist.. well i just want to change my look.. i always feel that this one of the reason i being like this..well... i can became handsome... ish...

then we talk about perfect man.. i was so suprise wit her answer.. well i cant recall it.. but mostly about god.. hehe.. then i kinda tell my problem..not really tell my exact problem... she know me and i guess she know all my situation.. so i no need to say lar.. haha. we had a nice talk... i quiet happy.. it really make me feel that i'm not alone.. yeah..

i will be strong.. and always keep faith wit Him.. Believe in Him...hhehehe...

i let it go not by my own strenght but by His strenght. philipian 4:13

may be the morning post are right.. hehe...

30 july

I always assume that the difficulties i'm facing are i'm alone deal wit it. On contrary, other are ready and eager to take part in discussing and share the responsibilty for coming up wit a solution that everybody can like with..

i need to talk about there now.. The more forthright i'm, the better..

hehe.. I need to discuss about renting a house.. My sad and loneliness.. My life.. And a friend.. Anyone? Hehe..

yeah... today i also got a house...just a bit too late.. never though that so much people look at that 1 item... yeah... the offer is good.. and is a really a house.. can pet a dog... unfurtunately the house already been book by other people... at 4 oclock... too bad... anyway.. is not wat i'm hoping for... because the house is two storey.. top floor is the owner and the bottom is renting...3 rooms!!! hehehe..well... the offer come and go... sadly... herm... but my day is ok... need a new friend...bintang... still never meet... so... keep on looking looking looking..

if you see me with nobody new cause i'm that little person still in love with you, you know sudah ku mencoba mencari penggantimu tapi tak ada yg berminat

-Dan-

29 july

Good morning every1. Today is wednesday.. Hoping can watch movie.. I never watch movie at this day.. Hoping today will change that..

i always take a long time to make a decision.. This because i think a lot.. With things that always changing and my mood always down.. I need to bide my time until circumstances are right..

nevertheless.. I'm at office.. And interaction wit people will always make feel alright..

28 july

Hello! Herm.. Sadly yesterday there don't have any offer.. Nothing that interested me.. The only thing is i still feeling sad.. Is not ordinary sad.. Is a hopeless sad..

today i have no positive feeling.. Since last friday.. My life feel like there no hope.. I really need support..

27 july

Hehe.. Well.. Today i feel quite ok because i'm at work.. It give time for me to other that me..

hopefully, an offer will come from out of the blue.. Is will be as good as they seem.. I need to do some exploration, it could be even better..

another positive view today.. Hopefully that will stay..

first thing to do

Somehow.. I feel really hopeless.. Knowing what happen next.. Know that the world always against you..

I dream of having a good life.. Yeah.. Things not always going what we think of.. Day by day.. I feel i float too far.. There is no more hope.. Dream always be a dream.. I can only tell in this blog.. I can tell more detail.. But it is use to be the same thing.. You all what it is..

i hate to admit i didn't move on.. Only try to avoid.. I can't do it.. Because i still unable to let go.. I still feel the love.. There lots of thing is this world yet i choose the same thing that will always broken my heart..

come on syl.. I know myself will never stop thinking about till new hope and dream arrives.. I looking everywhere.. Just sometimes.. Is not that simple.. Is not like going to mall and buy it.. I here all alone.. Not totally alone.. I wish i can be on her sides.. Come on.. I really hate myself.. Is there anyway to punish myself?

ish.. Come on syl.. First.. Find real friend.. Hang out.. Adui.. Again.. Is not like go to shop and buy something.. Go to church and join the group there.. Yeah.. Wise choice.. But i really don't like it.. Not that i got tanduk or something like that.. It just i hate my life, mean i don't love myself, mean that i don't appreciate what god have given to me.. Ok.. Back to find real friend.. Just have to wait and try hard to stand out of crowd.. I so desperate.. I have too.. If not, i will never move on, my mind will only think about her.. So long..

cancel plan

Today i suppose to go back labuan.. But suddenly feel like don't want.. Because yesterday i got my heart broken.. Well.. Going back to labuan will only bring back sad memories.. Althought my family at labuan and i'm happy to meet them.. But is unbearable to face the what had happen.. So.. I decide i don't go back today.. I still feel depress from yesterday broken heart.. But what to do.. Had to move on..

yesterday also.. While feeling hopeless.. I just remember post about my opportunity. When i think of it.. I got 1 thing i didn't try, and it just give from my friend yesterday.. So.. I give it a try.. Is a friend of my colleague.. Well.. I sms but it was her sister.. Haha.. Nothing much to tell.. But it at least add some spice of my hopeless feeling..

that it for now.. Another boring weekend to pass.. Miss her.. Bye

24 july

Herm.. Today.. I feel not in mood.. Well.. Wake up.. Feel stress of something.. Just hope is not what i think of.. Go to office.. Transfer file to a infected laptop.. My harddisk keep failed copy.. Herm.. Lucky i'm a patient guy.. So.. I try do things slowly.. Huh..

today been said that stunning opportunities is coming my way.. But i need to explore my option and avoid making any commitment that i can't disentangle myself from..

sweet friday every1. Happy pay day!

23 july

Again.. My morning post.. I hope today something new and exciting idea will came out.. Hehe.. This thing could be inside me all day long.. Well.. Think that the currently working will give me a reason for what will happen..

hehe.. I'm quite happy able to email to my blog.. Hehe.. Good morning!

phone onlined!

Testing.. I call the Celcom service.. Is a simple fix.. On off your phone.. Then try again.. Yeah.. If this post make it to my blog.. That mean i'm connected.. Hehe.. So.. Testing.!

feeling sad...all the time

so.... every day i fel bored... most of it happen at night.. i dont know want happen... i just wish can slowly change things.. i really had a wish.. but all that wish is just want to make me happy.. but wat i reallly want... is.... something unchangeable... impossible to achive... yeah..

here i currently wish of.. a house... a big house... and a car... honda civic.. hehe... all of this i can achive... dont this not wat i really wanted in my heart.. well.. better wish something that can get rather something impossible...

last saturday i went to b1 wit friend, go watch movie.. well i realise that i a boring guy.. go out have nothing to do... i'm a boring guy... lucky the person i going out is my long lost adik angkat.. so.. she dont mind... haha... still... i a lame guy... y not more excitement from me... :(

and today... i found out some1 that emotional as me, single last time, always complain about life... well.. i just found out she already move on and found some1... herm... so so fast... huhuhu... try lar i'm her... life would be easy...

ok lar.. that all i want to say..got lots again... just i forget...bye

blogging!!!

yeah..just about i start want to blog endlessly my phone started make problem....

yerp...stilll talk about my phone...

so.. today today today..


i got work to do... still feel like doing office work and not much civil engineering owrk... i get my cubical..my desk... all are complete... i need to order cabinet again.. i can feel my file will increase quickly as i help other engineer.. all the paper work i done come back to me... for my personal keeping... tonnes of drawing on my table already... herm... i really need to arrange my table... hehe... but my table is empty.. some1 buy for me things like pen holder, flower, and other cute2 things... hahaha

i need to have acess to internet.. i miss my blog so much... lots to tell... although my life is boring... really boring.. so so sad.... feel my life is meaningless... well... time passes... i think it will be the same...

herm...phone cant post

huhuhu...my phone had been bar and i unbar it...the problem now is i cant send email from my phone which mean i cant post to my blog...sad...

first work

Hehe.. Today i seem happy.. Excited my new work to be done.. Is not a real project.. Just need to calculate back the building.. Is the santavan forest heretage building at tuaran building, they say the building is beautifull and peacefull.. Hehe.. Is my first job, and i feel the job that i really want since i learn about civil engineer, is a design job, very hard.. Well.. At least it can make me think other that her.. Hehe. I also learn to give order to other people.. Copy this, print this.. And don't forget say thanks.. Hehe.. Still got lots to learn..

well.. This afternoon, i went to kolombong wit my colleague, theasia. She only one that almost same age wit me (25 Years old), well.. At least got rather than none.. Hehe.. So.. We eat at food city.. Hehe.. I just drive my car and she show me the way..

that all my working day today.. Is true that today experience give me a valueable insight of my work

Hehe.. So.. Today an experience will offer the most valueable insight.. Hehe.. So.. I need to gain experience today..could be i need to recalculate a building.. Mean.. I have work to do.. Hehe..

Yeah.. Is true to not plan my work today.. I should ask other engineer for work rather wait my architech drawing.. Haha.. Bored for 1 whole day.. And today wednesday, i wish i can watch movie.. Huh..

Today wisdom.. No plan too much.. Is more flexibe to think.. Hehe..

today morning i got breakfast wit one of the partner, the boss.. Hehe.. Nothing much to tell.. The food paid by him.. Hehe.. So.. Good morning everyone!

Today i got work to do.. Hehe.. No more boring day for me.. About my morning post, i didn't encounter any conflict today, i guess.. It just an everyday routine.. Tomoro i got assignment to do.. Yeah.. Haha.. Not much people excited wit his work, not me, for me..

lately i been feeling depress.. I feel that everything still the same. Nothing change inside my mind.. I still think about something unchangeable.. Huh.. What to do.. I feeling alone.. Only a few people that ask how am i.. Well.. Hope time passes here and i forget, hopefully..right now I miss her.. Deeply..

Hi.. Today i been told to stay away from any conflicts.. I could make it worst.. Hehe.. All the conflicts usually come from existing problem or from serious change.. Huh

so.. Morning.. Hope got work and not bored to dead.. And start again serious blogging.. Is been a while..

100 post, 100 truth

yeah..i dont know how to celebrate my 100th post... last time i want update on my new pc in the office but the admin dont want give me internet line...huhu..

now i got a better idea.. i been tag for 100 truth..

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: teh o
2. Last phone call: none
3. Last text message: none..no one to call or text
4. Last song you listened to: hannah montana - the climb
5. Last time you cried : today at church... only tear..think about my stay at kk

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: nope
7. Been cheated on: yes
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: nope..for wat regretted it
9. Lost someone special: totally yes..
10. Been depressed: everyday..every moment
11. Been drunk and threw up: yes...

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. yellow
13. blue
14. black

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yes
16. Fallen out of love: sadly..none
17. Laughed until you cried: yes
18. Met someone who changed you: nope
19. Found out who your true friends were: herm...can say yes...
20. Found out someone was talking about you: i dont know..do u?
21. Kissed anyone on your friend list: nope
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: facebook friends?? yes.. i know almost all of it..
23. How many kids do you want to have: 4
24. Do you have any pets: i want to...currently none
25. Do you want to change your name: sylvester is great name
26. What did you do for your last birthday: clebrated wit friend
27. What time did you wake up today: 6..go to church
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: watch tv..hbo
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: love...
30. Last time you saw your Mother: last 2 weeks ago..
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: being not lonely and still got her..
32. What are you listening to right now: TVBS... i dont understand a word
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Nope...
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: know the truth about some1
35. Most visited webpage: facebook, and blogspot
36. Whats your real name: Sylvester Ipoh
37. Nicknames: syl, sal, sil, ter ter, bibi, ahter, sylwest, vester..
38. Relationship Status: Single..huhuu
39. Zodiac sign: Libra
40. Male or female : Male
41. Elementary?: Chi Wen
42. Middle School?: St. Anthony
43. High school/college?: UiTm penang and Shah Alam
44. Hair colour: Dark...
45. Long or short: Short...
46. Height: tall enough
48: What do you like about yourself?: caring, curious, loving
49. Piercings: none
50. Tattoos: none
51. Righty or lefty: righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: none
53. First piercing: dont hve piercings lo
54. First best friend: Gary mojingol
55. First sport you joined: badminton
56. First vacation: kk
58. First pair of trainers: when school started sport..cant remember

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: hungry
60. Drinking: is been a while
61. I'm about to: bath
62. Listening to: again..TVBS..i cant understand
63. Waiting on: something wonderfull happen..like in my dream

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? : want
65. Get Married? : want..
66. Career? : be a profesional engineer

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: Kisses and hugs..both
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Older or Younger: younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous : Romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: stomach
73. Sensitive or loud : Sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship : Relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: hesitant..but both i dont argee

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: never
77. Drank hard liquor: yes
78. Lost glasses/contacts: my contacts
79. Sex on first date: nope
80. Broken someone's heart: yes, i do
82. Been arrested : yes..because a friend
83. Turned someone down: yes and i'm sorry
84. Cried when someone died: Yes, I do
85. Fallen for a friend?: herm...nope

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself : yes
87. Miracles : yes..i want now..come on
88. Love at first sight : hehe..want
89. Heaven: yes
90. Santa Claus: yes..i want a gift
91. Kiss on the first date: sure....
92.Angels: yes
93.lost: nice tv series

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time : never
95. Did you sing today? : nope
96. Ever cheated on somebody? : never
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? : when i first date her..form 5 i guess
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? : 1 january.. and want to stay it that way
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? : nope...open for new 1 but still love the last 1
100. Posting this as 100 truths? Yes...


yeah.. happy 100th post for me!!

baby stuff

This saturday will be my boss baby fullmonth.. We will celebrate at dowish restaurant at penampang there.. Hehe.. So today i go find present to buy, i go to city mall to find the present.. Hehe.. I brought 1 set of baby cloth.. Hehe.. Cute..

this pass 2 days i been feeling a bit down.. Not due to my work.. But just my personal feeling.. You all can guess what is it.. Huh.. Lucky got jacqueline cheer my day. We msg.. Hehe.. Another day pass wit i doing nothing at office..

Baby Julie

Hi...herm... last weekend i spend my time at my anty justina house at kingfisher house.. i need to go there to go to church at sunday... huhuu...macam terpaksa this... :P

anyway.. is been a while i never stay there, i still remember last time when they all at labuan and stay at layang-layangan before to go to kk.. and then after that time... we just lost contact..

well.. time passes again and i'm working at kk, here.. only 2 of my kazen that are same age...not exactly same age but... consider young adult lar.. huhuhu...

so... there never a picture before in this blog, so . i give the honour my kazen to be the first picture in this blog... i never intended to put picture, because i dont like loook at myself... ok she know to play piano, sing.... herm..that it is guess...:P

i like to listen to her piano playing... espesially romantic love song... hehehe... ok lar.. nothing to talk... here a youtube video she playing piano.. only hands in action k... love story by taylor swiff


i know is bad quality.. but is nice..:) will post soon about at piano piece... may be this weekend again...:)

good morning

Good morning every1, today i'm arrive at office super early.. None of the staff had arrive.. Hehe.. I guess i wrong timing.. Haha.. Oh ya.. Yesterday, there no electricity in the office which mean no work.. Haha.. I able go to go bank and settle everything..

yeah!!

maybank

Hi.. Today seem a bit lost.. I want make new account but seriously hard.. No parking.. Long q hehe.. Well.. I wish i had time to do it.. Hehe. Which mean i don't make new account.. Haiya. so bad.. Huh..

yesterday i had time to play computer.. Hehe.. Lucky for me.. I can chat. Herm.. Basically thats all happen in my life..

first day at work

Hi.. I'm now in my company.. Feel quite happy today because some1 i contact that cheer me up and ask how am i..

but i feel boring.. No pc.. Herm.. Yeah.. I been call as engineer baru.. Haha.. And i'm the youngest.. Bos call me highly ambition because i want became PE, hehe.. Don't want disappointed him, but i don't know how work done here.. And here no overtime, the only time that count is deadline of the project.. Bye..