Now,i guess within days, things will fall into place, and without the dramas you so feared. It's as if all those discussions of the past weeks came together in one magical arrangement. Hehe.. I can feel it.. Hopefully this positive feeling can push me forward..
Friday, July 31, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
then we talk about perfect man.. i was so suprise wit her answer.. well i cant recall it.. but mostly about god.. hehe.. then i kinda tell my problem..not really tell my exact problem... she know me and i guess she know all my situation.. so i no need to say lar.. haha. we had a nice talk... i quiet happy.. it really make me feel that i'm not alone.. yeah..
i will be strong.. and always keep faith wit Him.. Believe in Him...hhehehe...
i let it go not by my own strenght but by His strenght. philipian 4:13
may be the morning post are right.. hehe...
i need to talk about there now.. The more forthright i'm, the better..
hehe.. I need to discuss about renting a house.. My sad and loneliness.. My life.. And a friend.. Anyone? Hehe..
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
i always take a long time to make a decision.. This because i think a lot.. With things that always changing and my mood always down.. I need to bide my time until circumstances are right..
nevertheless.. I'm at office.. And interaction wit people will always make feel alright..
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
today i have no positive feeling.. Since last friday.. My life feel like there no hope.. I really need support..
Monday, July 27, 2009
hopefully, an offer will come from out of the blue.. Is will be as good as they seem.. I need to do some exploration, it could be even better..
another positive view today.. Hopefully that will stay..
Sunday, July 26, 2009
I dream of having a good life.. Yeah.. Things not always going what we think of.. Day by day.. I feel i float too far.. There is no more hope.. Dream always be a dream.. I can only tell in this blog.. I can tell more detail.. But it is use to be the same thing.. You all what it is..
i hate to admit i didn't move on.. Only try to avoid.. I can't do it.. Because i still unable to let go.. I still feel the love.. There lots of thing is this world yet i choose the same thing that will always broken my heart..
come on syl.. I know myself will never stop thinking about till new hope and dream arrives.. I looking everywhere.. Just sometimes.. Is not that simple.. Is not like going to mall and buy it.. I here all alone.. Not totally alone.. I wish i can be on her sides.. Come on.. I really hate myself.. Is there anyway to punish myself?
ish.. Come on syl.. First.. Find real friend.. Hang out.. Adui.. Again.. Is not like go to shop and buy something.. Go to church and join the group there.. Yeah.. Wise choice.. But i really don't like it.. Not that i got tanduk or something like that.. It just i hate my life, mean i don't love myself, mean that i don't appreciate what god have given to me.. Ok.. Back to find real friend.. Just have to wait and try hard to stand out of crowd.. I so desperate.. I have too.. If not, i will never move on, my mind will only think about her.. So long..
Saturday, July 25, 2009
yesterday also.. While feeling hopeless.. I just remember post about my opportunity. When i think of it.. I got 1 thing i didn't try, and it just give from my friend yesterday.. So.. I give it a try.. Is a friend of my colleague.. Well.. I sms but it was her sister.. Haha.. Nothing much to tell.. But it at least add some spice of my hopeless feeling..
that it for now.. Another boring weekend to pass.. Miss her.. Bye
Friday, July 24, 2009
today been said that stunning opportunities is coming my way.. But i need to explore my option and avoid making any commitment that i can't disentangle myself from..
sweet friday every1. Happy pay day!
Thursday, July 23, 2009
hehe.. I'm quite happy able to email to my blog.. Hehe.. Good morning!
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
here i currently wish of.. a house... a big house... and a car... honda civic.. hehe... all of this i can achive... dont this not wat i really wanted in my heart.. well.. better wish something that can get rather something impossible...
last saturday i went to b1 wit friend, go watch movie.. well i realise that i a boring guy.. go out have nothing to do... i'm a boring guy... lucky the person i going out is my long lost adik angkat.. so.. she dont mind... haha... still... i a lame guy... y not more excitement from me... :(
and today... i found out some1 that emotional as me, single last time, always complain about life... well.. i just found out she already move on and found some1... herm... so so fast... huhuhu... try lar i'm her... life would be easy...
ok lar.. that all i want to say..got lots again... just i forget...bye
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
yerp...stilll talk about my phone...
so.. today today today..
i got work to do... still feel like doing office work and not much civil engineering owrk... i get my cubical..my desk... all are complete... i need to order cabinet again.. i can feel my file will increase quickly as i help other engineer.. all the paper work i done come back to me... for my personal keeping... tonnes of drawing on my table already... herm... i really need to arrange my table... hehe... but my table is empty.. some1 buy for me things like pen holder, flower, and other cute2 things... hahaha
i need to have acess to internet.. i miss my blog so much... lots to tell... although my life is boring... really boring.. so so sad.... feel my life is meaningless... well... time passes... i think it will be the same...
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Thursday, July 16, 2009
well.. This afternoon, i went to kolombong wit my colleague, theasia. She only one that almost same age wit me (25 Years old), well.. At least got rather than none.. Hehe.. So.. We eat at food city.. Hehe.. I just drive my car and she show me the way..
that all my working day today.. Is true that today experience give me a valueable insight of my work
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
lately i been feeling depress.. I feel that everything still the same. Nothing change inside my mind.. I still think about something unchangeable.. Huh.. What to do.. I feeling alone.. Only a few people that ask how am i.. Well.. Hope time passes here and i forget, hopefully..right now I miss her.. Deeply..
Sunday, July 12, 2009
now i got a better idea.. i been tag for 100 truth..
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: teh o
2. Last phone call: none
3. Last text message: none..no one to call or text
4. Last song you listened to: hannah montana - the climb
5. Last time you cried : today at church... only tear..think about my stay at kk
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: nope
7. Been cheated on: yes
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: nope..for wat regretted it
9. Lost someone special: totally yes..
10. Been depressed: everyday..every moment
11. Been drunk and threw up: yes...
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yes
16. Fallen out of love: sadly..none
17. Laughed until you cried: yes
18. Met someone who changed you: nope
19. Found out who your true friends were: herm...can say yes...
20. Found out someone was talking about you: i dont know..do u?
21. Kissed anyone on your friend list: nope
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: facebook friends?? yes.. i know almost all of it..
23. How many kids do you want to have: 4
24. Do you have any pets: i want to...currently none
25. Do you want to change your name: sylvester is great name
26. What did you do for your last birthday: clebrated wit friend
27. What time did you wake up today: 6..go to church
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: watch tv..hbo
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: love...
30. Last time you saw your Mother: last 2 weeks ago..
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: being not lonely and still got her..
32. What are you listening to right now: TVBS... i dont understand a word
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Nope...
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: know the truth about some1
35. Most visited webpage: facebook, and blogspot
36. Whats your real name: Sylvester Ipoh
37. Nicknames: syl, sal, sil, ter ter, bibi, ahter, sylwest, vester..
38. Relationship Status: Single..huhuu
39. Zodiac sign: Libra
40. Male or female : Male
41. Elementary?: Chi Wen
42. Middle School?: St. Anthony
43. High school/college?: UiTm penang and Shah Alam
44. Hair colour: Dark...
45. Long or short: Short...
46. Height: tall enough
48: What do you like about yourself?: caring, curious, loving
49. Piercings: none
50. Tattoos: none
51. Righty or lefty: righty
52. First surgery: none
53. First piercing: dont hve piercings lo
54. First best friend: Gary mojingol
55. First sport you joined: badminton
56. First vacation: kk
58. First pair of trainers: when school started sport..cant remember
59. Eating: hungry
60. Drinking: is been a while
61. I'm about to: bath
62. Listening to: again..TVBS..i cant understand
63. Waiting on: something wonderfull happen..like in my dream
YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? : want
65. Get Married? : want..
66. Career? : be a profesional engineer
WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: Kisses and hugs..both
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Older or Younger: younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous : Romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: stomach
73. Sensitive or loud : Sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship : Relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: hesitant..but both i dont argee
HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: never
77. Drank hard liquor: yes
78. Lost glasses/contacts: my contacts
79. Sex on first date: nope
80. Broken someone's heart: yes, i do
82. Been arrested : yes..because a friend
83. Turned someone down: yes and i'm sorry
84. Cried when someone died: Yes, I do
85. Fallen for a friend?: herm...nope
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself : yes
87. Miracles : yes..i want now..come on
88. Love at first sight : hehe..want
89. Heaven: yes
90. Santa Claus: yes..i want a gift
91. Kiss on the first date: sure....
93.lost: nice tv series
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time : never
95. Did you sing today? : nope
96. Ever cheated on somebody? : never
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? : when i first date her..form 5 i guess
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? : 1 january.. and want to stay it that way
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? : nope...open for new 1 but still love the last 1
100. Posting this as 100 truths? Yes...
yeah.. happy 100th post for me!!
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
this pass 2 days i been feeling a bit down.. Not due to my work.. But just my personal feeling.. You all can guess what is it.. Huh.. Lucky got jacqueline cheer my day. We msg.. Hehe.. Another day pass wit i doing nothing at office..
Sunday, July 5, 2009
anyway.. is been a while i never stay there, i still remember last time when they all at labuan and stay at layang-layangan before to go to kk.. and then after that time... we just lost contact..
well.. time passes again and i'm working at kk, here.. only 2 of my kazen that are same age...not exactly same age but... consider young adult lar.. huhuhu...
so... there never a picture before in this blog, so . i give the honour my kazen to be the first picture in this blog... i never intended to put picture, because i dont like loook at myself... ok she know to play piano, sing.... herm..that it is guess...:P
i like to listen to her piano playing... espesially romantic love song... hehehe... ok lar.. nothing to talk... here a youtube video she playing piano.. only hands in action k... love story by taylor swiff
i know is bad quality.. but is nice..:) will post soon about at piano piece... may be this weekend again...:)
Friday, July 3, 2009
Thursday, July 2, 2009
yesterday i had time to play computer.. Hehe.. Lucky for me.. I can chat. Herm.. Basically thats all happen in my life..
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
but i feel boring.. No pc.. Herm.. Yeah.. I been call as engineer baru.. Haha.. And i'm the youngest.. Bos call me highly ambition because i want became PE, hehe.. Don't want disappointed him, but i don't know how work done here.. And here no overtime, the only time that count is deadline of the project.. Bye..